killing time
only 11 more days before i'm outta here for good. since i've decided to not bother with any of my classes, all i've been doing is staying in & trying to finish the foot-tall stack of books & dvds i borrowed from the library. that & making sure that i'm sufficiently incapacitated by drink that i don't get suicidal enough to actually Do Something About It; i'm looking at my calendar & i still can't believe that i've been in halifax for only 3 months -- objectively speaking, a quarter of a year isn't all that much even if i only plan to live until 60/senility, & yet here i am, doing something that's either Monumentally Idiotic or Absolutely Brilliant, depending on how idealistic you are. i haven't even figured out what i'm gonna tell my parents when i ship my stuff back home. "guess what? i'm a complete fuck-up so i'm dropping out of university & moving to new york to live in the muthafuckin' subway tunnels & scavenge for food on the streets because halifax makes me want to kill myself every morning i wake up to all the rain & quiet & i can't move back to toronto to live with you guys because waking up every morning to your arguments & fights doesn't exactly inspire me to live either?"
the worst part is, i don't know enough chinese to explain to them why exactly am i doing this (even though i'm not too sure myself). it took years for my parents to give up on getting me to become a doctor: how long is it gonna take for them to realize that there's no way in hell i'll succumb to their white picket fence dream of grandchildren & suvs?
posted by malachi trizec @ 6:48 a.m.
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Just make sure you keep up with the blogging after you move to new york. Your faithful readers want to know that you're all right.
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